So ive just been sitting here, and ive been thinking, everyone has there similarities and there differences, and im sure some of you can probably relate to this.. or most of you can probably relate...

going through those times in your life where your just sitting there, starring off into space, and all you can think about and try to understand is why do people leave?
you always ask yourself the question things happen for reasons? but why cant i ffind a good reason on why that one person left? Its that person who you will never forget even though you can hardly figure out who they are anymore, that person who you always think about, and remember how close you used to be, and the person who you never expected to grow apart and become strangers with. why did they have to leave?

its so hard to forgive them, but i know its not only them you need to forgive, its yourself. You need to forgive yourself for holding onto all the anger they may have caused, all the dinal and hatrade they brought to your life, you need to forgive yourself for holding onto the thoughts of being worthless because of the fact they left, its the moment when you can forgive them, and forgive yourself when things start to change. It so hard, i know, trust me. Theres somethings in life that are so hard to forgive your self for, and the people you just cant build the strength to forgive,
i meen you want to, you really want to forgive them but its so hard because there never there. Their just gone liveing a total life of their own independance one in which your not it.

ive felt that way, i sometimes still do, because forgiving that one person, has to be the most hardest thing ill ever face in my life, and i just dont get it sometimes, i meen i know i have a father in heaven, and i know he forgives me the second i make a mistake, but were human and i dont understand why it is so hard for us to "forgive" . i guess its just the fact of being afraid youll never see that person again, but thats pathetic because forgiving them is the one thing that could bring you back to that person.

its hard, difficult, and stressful, but when you build the strength to let go, and forgive them, and eventually forgive yourself, that is when you start to feel a change in your life.
yes things happen for a reason, its all part of gods plan, in the end you will understand, but for now you just need to have faith, and dont doubt your life one bit.
things can change if you are whilling to let them.