Reasons why i love him <3

So usually i write about things that i like to get out instead of holding something in, and the biggest thing is to try to tell people that no matter how tough life can be and how you may come to crossroads in life and you dont know what path or direction to go in, and your sitting in a place where your confused, and worried about where your going to be and who you are. I like to say that life is going to throw things at you but no matter what you have to be strong, and you cant lose your faith and hope in the things you love the most and the things you trust, because in time things will and can get better if you let them. Sometimes you just have to let go of some things that you have been holding onto. Sometimes the past might hurt, but you have to let it go to move on.

But for this post i am going to write about someone who means the world to me, someone who has shown me alot of things about life and who has made a huge difference in my life, someone who i can trust with my whole heart. Someone i believe god put in my life for a reason, and i am so thankful for that. I couldnt ever be happier.

His name is Cody, we have been dateing for over 9 months and it will be 10 months soon when novemember comes around : ) He is an amazing guy, and has an amazing personality and such a careing and loving heart. He sees me for who i am and not someone im not, i can be myself around him. He is going to make such a big difference in this world someday i know he is, and he already has in my life.
I love him so much,
Not only is he my boyfriend but he is my bestfriend, i can tell him anything and i can trust him. And he is always there for me in good and bad times, if im going through somethings he is always right there to help me through it and tell me not to give up. He really does put a smile on my face, even if its the last thing i want to do. His love helps remind me that good things no matter what are still possible. And to always believe that anything is possible. He brings the best out of me, and brightens up my life with his love. His love has helped me to rediscover myself and who iam, because at some points we all lose ourselves and forget who we were. He helped me be who i am and not someone else. Cody is such an amazing guy, and he isnt like any other guy. When im with him, it feels like nothing else matters except for the moment spent in each others arms.
He has the most careing heart, and even when i am really really grumpy he still likes me = ) Everytime i think of him i find myself smiling. Every moment spent with him is so incredible, and i love every second of it.

.. our tickle wars, and rock paper scissor wars.... i love it how i win everytime and he is always in denial. Its cute = )
I cant explain the feelign i get when im with him, its like for once things actually make sence, and nothing can come between us. I feel liek when im with him anythign is possible, like i can do anything. He fills my life with joy and happiness. Every moment we spend together i always treasure and i will never forget. there always times worth remembering. All the times when we have serious coversations and then one second goes by and we are laughing about something totally different, it usually starts with a tickle war. God put him in my life for a reason and it filled my life with such an amazing joy. I am so thankful to have him in my life and i thank God everyday.

He means everything to me, and he is my anchor in lifes ocean, and most of all my best friend! He has seen me with no make up on, and he still loves me.

i am so blessed.

There are endless reasons why i love him but those are some reasons.
He means everything to me,
and he has made such an incredible difference in my life. And i know one day he is going to make a big difference in alot of peoples lives, i really believe that.
I love him so much <3

Maybe beyond everything; the real answer is to stop running"

Truth...

It still exists, it really does. You just have to believe that you know. Even though you come to points in your life, where truth can be so so cold, and dark, and a feeling youve never felt before. Maybe even more painful than you have ever imagined in your whole entire life. Where you have been faced with lies, and yet you learn to live with them, but when you are faced with the truth that may be even more cruel than any lie out there, its really hard to understand the difference between them. And you just want to run away and leave this place.

Theres always those times that we end up at, when we want to choose a different path, where we want to lead and lean towards a different direction because we are sick of the same thing over and over again. Where we just want to get up and go. At this moment you have to make choices, if you are going to let everyone define who you are before you even have the chance to figure that out for your self. See each day we are given choices, a whole lot of choices, but two very importan ones are, are you going to get up and move forward today, or are you going to simply give up?

After a while we tend to just give up, because we realize that its the same thing over and over again. Weither its the lies that we face, the truth that is always there and said to be the truth but ends up lost. When we just want out you know, because you feel as if nothing is going to change. When all you really want and wish for, is for that simple change that you know can happen but it feels so far away.

So this is why you want to start over and leave, for one moment to a place where you dont know anyone and no body knows you, or who you have been, where suddenly you can figure out who you really are and who you want to actually be for once. Because you have been living so long, being the person that everyone else knows you as, the person they defined you as. Someone youjsut cant be anymore. Someone your actually running from. Sometimes because of how other people have labled you its really hard to figure out who you are, but because its only when you are tested when you truley discover who you are. and when you can discover who you want to be and who you can be. Just because each day we are labeled and defined as something that is completely oposite doesnt mean the person you want to be is to far to reach and doesnt exist because it does. Somewhere , out there, in your faith and hope and belief that beyond your heartach and the fear that you feel that life has who you can be and want to be does exist.

Sometimes it takes a leap of faith to show people who that is, because you may be hiding under that mask , that label, that people have defined you as.
So just stop running,

When you do want to get up and go , because you feel it is the same thing over and over again and you just want to start over, why not right here, in the same place your at? Just dont except what they define you as, change who you are for you. and show everyone that who you can be and want to be does exist. Then maybe they will learn the truth you know, and not the hard truth, because all your doing is showing them who you really are, and maybe they will learn to do the same.

There is going to come times when every solution you can think of consist of getting away.
When you just want to get up and go, but maybe beyond that, the real answer is to just stop running.
Stop running from all the lies, or the hurtful truth, stop running from the person you have been, or the person others define you as, and stop running from always being in the same place every single day, just for once stop running, and take each day at a time because in life we will come to crossroads and we may not have a map, or a destination to go to so we tend to just turn around and go back, but instead of running away from our fears, and our past, we just have to live with it and move forward each day.

And believe that running isnt the solution but taking the steps to a new direction is a new beginning.