he doesn't understand, or maybe he has a full understanding.

i think that there is a reason for everything, but for some reason i can't find any reason that could ever add up to this.

if i were to try to say it in words, they'd come out too violent.

I'm just searching, that's all.

people who live with two parents, and have a complete family with no divorce are very lucky, especially in this day and age. You don't know how much of a gift it is, and to think some people take it for granted.

"But the blood in your veins,

as you carry his name;

turns thinner than water."

I thought I was ready, But I don't think I am anymore.

Birthday Card- from my beautiful grandmother

Best Birthday Card I Have Ever Been Given...

Life Legacies
thoughts for my grandaughter on her birthday

Live Deep
never stop learning, playing, or finding wonder in the world around you.
live the length of your life, but live the depth of it as well.

Travel Light
there is no use in carrying around worry and regret.
they only weigh you down.
always keep yourself open to hope and to love.
they give us wings.

Forgive Imperfections
in yourself and others.
imperfections keep things interesting.
they're the cracks where the light shines through.

Own Beautiful Things
and not just to keep in the drawer,
tucked away for a perfect day.
surround yourself with things that make you happy,
that remind you of the beauty all around us
if we only keep our eyes open to it.

Make Mistakes
follow detours. sometimes it takes an unexpected turn to help us find the life
that is waiting for us around the bend.
trust yourself and the path that is meant for you.

Take Care Of Yourself
and sometimes that means
you need the ice cream.
be good to your body,
but also to your ind and spirirt.
you're the only one who can.

And Always, Always Know You Are Loved.
you are a gift to this world
and a blessing to me.
and that will never change.

"Where we gonna go from here."

What if there was no such thing as change?

We always say that things are changing, or I've changed, or you have changed. And we say it in a way where we are not proud of. Or we feel less fortunate to have changed.

What if there was no such thing as change?

What if the leaves never changed color, and the seasons never changed?
What if you never grew, and what if you never aged?
What if there was no such thing as birthdays because those are changes in your lives.
What if music never changed, movies, shows and commercials?
What if the sky never changed?
What if the time never changed?
What if art never changed?

What if people never changed?

Things would be boring, un exciting and dull.
If the leaves never changed color than the trees would be less beautiful to look at.
If the seasons never changed than we wouldnt have more than one season.
If we never aged than no body would know how old we are.
If we didnt have birthdays, than there would be no such thing as "Age."
If music never changed, movies, shows and commercials than less dreams would come true.
If the sky never changed than there wouldnt be anything exstravigant about it.
If the time never changed, than there would be no moving forward, we would be frozen.
If are never changed than there would be less artists, and more boundaries.

If people never changed than we could be stuck in a good world, or a bad world. There wouldnt be hope for those who lost themselves in this world. We wouldnt be able to make things better, or become a better person if we couldnt change.
We would be stuck in who we were in our past. There would be no moving forward.