hurt'

you shouldnt focus on all the things in life that are hurting you, even when sometimes it feels like theres no way out, because hurt in this world is so big.
if you think about it, we have all probably hurt someone in the past, or even a matter of seconds, minutes, hours or days ago, weve all been there, wether or not we were the ones hurting inside from being hurt, or we were the ones hurting others.

why do we do it?
maybe were so dissillusiond in the fact that we actually are hurting someone, i meen we dont do it on purpose all the time, but when it is on purpose, its mostly because of rage, anger, jealiousy, hatred, denial, confusion, or even just the curiosity of what may happen as bad as it sounds, arnt those the things that create hurt in this world. we dont meen to, but some how we just do it.

but sometimes its not even about that, theres many other things in life that are out there, that may have hurt you, in the past, or might even hurt you in the future, its all just a test to make you stronger. things happen for reasons, but sometimes you just cant find the reasoning to things. i think that when people leave, well thats where alot of hurt builds up, and its sooo incrediably hard to just stop hurting.
after having someone you love leave, you may not realize it right away, but later on these roads in this life, you start to realize that you need that person again, and life just doesnt make sence with out them in it, i meen feeling unworthy, hated, stupid for even trying to make sence of it all, confused out of your mind, and scared that your never going to see that person again, it all just causes hurt, and we dont see it until we actually start to wonder and miss them.

its just so hard, you want to let go , and youve tried, but a part of you is still holding on because hidden under the pain and hurt, they have caused you, well you just still believe in them , and have faith for them , and hope for their heart to change, but tthings dont just go back to normal. and thats when you start to realize if they still love you, or even care about you, beacsuse sseeing them very few times, and not hearing from them for a long time.
no phone calls, no emails, no visiting, no nothing , no comunication.
so you ask yourself this ,..
can you please tell me, why i should beleive in you,
why should i still have faith and hope for you,
please just give me a reason why i can trust that you will stay and you wont go, or that i can trust that one day your heart is going to change and your going to come back,
because this pain and hurt and confusing , and broken road between us, seperating us, causing us to be apart and in so much hurt, is really really hard to live with.
and really, as hard as this is to say it , but my faith and hope for you is slightly dissapearing and im not sure how much longer i can handle it, is waiting for you really worth it?

after thinking all of that , you hesitate but pull the strength to say,
i wish someone could just save me, take me to a better place,
because this one that your in right now is so far from where you wish you could be.
just take me somewhere, somewhere else, so i can find the strength to actually have a reason why i should still beilieve in you,
and mostly have faith and hope for you, because who you have shown me to be , is nothing but complete stranger.