trying to figure it all out.

So many times, i sit here in silence, and i try to make sence of it all.
So many times i have sat here and glanced at the ceiling, wondering why no matter how hard you try to keep someone, theres always that moment when they leave.

I dont understand how people can just be here one moment and gone another,
how families can be destroyed, how children can be taken away in a matter of seconds, how all of this causes hurt in our hearts, how our hearts break in half because of something that makes no sence to us at all.

How no matter how hard we try to keep these memories close to our hearts, sooner or later they find away of fading.
We try to keep there smell around, for the sake of believing that they are still here. But eventually that smell goes away,

I have sat here so many times, i just dont understand why you had to leave, why i was there and there was nothing i could do.....
i miss you :(