Remembering'

You know, you can look at a photo of someone and you always remember who they were. You remember everything about them as if they are still here, but yet you know that they are gone.
What happens when you start to realize that. You know, that they are gone all over again, or what happens when you look at that picture and you know them soo well, but then you jump back into reality and your not only looking at someone you know, but now its as if you dont know them at all. What then?
Is it like none of the memories ever mattered? Is it like whats the point of trying to remember them when they have changed so much and you cant ever go back to how it used to be. You know? Or is it like having that one fear, of loosing the memory of who they were because your trying so hard to remember every single memory spent with them.
Its like when you do look at a photo of someone that you have now created a huge amount of distance between to the point where you dont know them at all you start really remember who they really used to be, and then you start to wonder how can someone change so dramatically where its like they are no longer in your life.
Why do these things happen?
Where you look at one photo and you really start to hurt, because you want nothing more than to always remember that person you know. Like if theres any fear in the whole world, your so scared of losing who that person was and all the memories, because you start to think that the memories are really all you have left of that person.
It sucks.
To have someone still in this life and yet you grow so far from them, and you dont know them anymore.
The person in that one photo probably just lives right down the road from you, someone you used to be so close to, someone you knew so well, there still around you just dont know them anymore but how come?
why stop knowing someone?
I dont get it at all.
Is it the effort in trying too, or what is it? Because to me its just pathetic. I look at alot of photo's and i remember who they were so well, but then i think and i have no idea who that person is now, and it really sucks.

Its like a part of you is missing.
One photo can have so much memory in it, but why not keep making the memories? I meen why stop? I think that we have all grown apart for someone, but if you really miss them, you have to make an effort to trying to get to know that person again, or all you are going to really have are memories of them and sooner or later those memories will probably fade.
Dont miss out on knowing someone you used to know so well, because then what was the point of knowing them rihgt? i meene youll have the memories and the photos, but why does that ever have to end?

Things happen for reasons'

Its crazy how within an hour everything can change. Where 60 minutes ago everything was so great and you sit there thanking God for what he has done in your life, and then an hour goes by, and suddenly what was is now gone. Everything is different in a matter of 60 minutes, and it changes your life forever.
Things are no longer the same, because that one person is gone.
And you start to question alot of things, because its like there is no answers, like your lost and confused and you just dont understand how something can change like that.
Where everything can be going so so right, too feeling broken, and hurt, and you just cant understand it at all.
Its hard to let someone go you know, but when your given just that and you cant do anything about it, i guess you just have to learn too. But not to the point where you will forget them cuz thats all you have left, are the memories because there gone. So you hold onto those, there the only thing left. Trategies happen all the time, but when your heart breaks you have to fight like crazy. And the pain you feel.. its to remind you that things will be okay, and theres something out there that will make everything alright. And that the pain and hurt will be replaced with happiness and that its worth fighting for.
Its just hard you know, to be given no choice at all, but to let that person go. Its hard.
All the questions that you have and some that cant be answered now.
Its hard,
how do you deal with losing someone you love?
I wish i could answer that question.
But i dont think i can. I mean if you just have faith , and hope that things will be okay, then that could make things better.
But what happens if its like a part of you is missing, now that their gone.
Because they meant so much to you. More than they will ever know.
What then?
How do you go on and believe things will be okay when you feel so far from that feeling, the feeling of everything is okay. you know.
I guess somethings cant be answered.
But maybe if you believe that things happen for reasons, you can get that belief that things will be okay, because it all happend for a reason.

Through Someone else's eyes'

Im sure we've all pictured out life through someone else's eyes. Just trying to find that one place where we think we belong, other than in our own eyes you know. Because all you see through your own eyes are people who are hurting or the ones who have hurt you. All you see in pain and suffering from wasting your time regreting the past itself. And you just want to escape from it all. You see people putting on masks to disguise them selves everyday. People who lie to just make it through the day. You see people who are lonely, and just want to know that someone cares. And everyday you face the same questions over and over again.
Then we start to picture our whole entire life through someone else's eyes, because maybe just maybe things will be different and we can find the answers we are looking for. So you open your eyes, pretending their our own eyes when really there someone else's, but you start to notice that everything is the same, you see the same hurt, the same pain, the same lies, and the same questions, and the same suffering. You realize that your not the only one who maybe hurting, or maybe seeing all of the hurt and pain, and suffering around you. So why not do something about it? insteead of trying to put your life in someone else's shoes where you see the same hurt and pain, why not do something to help it?
Some people you know the ones you try to picture your life through their eyes, they just wear a mask, and disguise themselves. And ignore what is really happening in this world. Not even trying to help it. So you go about believing that you want their life because maybe there is no hurt or pain? when really thats a visaud. Because there is hurt and pain and suffering every where. And everyone expeiriences it.
The truth is we all hurt even though some of us hide it better then others. We all fear, we all fall, and we all have a million questions with answers that seem so far away..
Life is meant to find the answers as we grow as a person. No body has al the answers right off the bat, i mean who are we kidding whats the point if we did have all the answers? You just have to fight like hell to find them. So stop wasteing your life away picturing yourself through someone else's eyes.
Just open yours!!
Realize that no matter who you are things are going to be okay because there is a little thing called faith, and hope and if your whilling too you can change. But change for yourself, not to be someone else. Just open your eyes and accept you for you. Dont search for something out of reach. Follow your own dreams not someone else's. And maybe the hurt, the pain, the suffering, the ones who are lonely, who are broken, and lost can be found and can be helped, if you take the time to make things change. instead of trying to be someone your not, and wasteing your time looking at the world and the people who are broken and lost and hurt and are lonely and have nothing. Maybe we can help that.
Just open your own eyes.

Why does the truth sometimes feel so far away'

Every single day we face the same truth. Do we all know what truth is? Its sometimes hard to understand it, because we get so caught up in whats really just lies.

The truth is considered to be the supreme reality, and to have the meaning and value of existance. But why is it that sometimes we get so far from the value of existance or in other words just the plain old truth.
We may face the same truth everyday of our lives. Truth that you have to figure out on your own, kind of like asking yourself, do you live your life in denial, regret, is it all based on sayings and cliches? Where all these sayings express your feelings? Or are they just empty words that meen nothing to your life. Or where the people you hangout with, you later start to become. Maybe even someone you never wanted to be you know. Its like the truth sometimes gets so far away, that when we try to reach it, we fall. I dont know, maybe im off here, but this is how i think of this all.

Truth isnt always knowing whats right compared to whats wrong, the truth well it exists, but how do we always find it when it sometimes drifts away? Like when we drift away from the truth. Our own truth. The one we know so well.
Its always going to be hard to get back, because you have to know whats the truth and what may be the lies.
Why is there even the fake truth, or lies in this world? I meen does it benifett our lives in anyway? Does it show us who we are, or is it like that voice inside your head telling you your something your not, but yet your comfortable with it. Is it all like that?

What is the meaning of a false identity, or just all the lies that we may face in this life? What is its real meaning?
I lie is like a false statement made with dileberate intent to decieve, an intentional untruth.

Words that only push you away from who you are, or maybe take you away from something you love, or even someone you love.
We are always going to face the lies in this life, but it doesnt mean that the truth too far. Its always going to be in reachable distance if yourwhilling to get it back.

We face what is not real all the time, and sooner or later we start to believe it. And that is why right there, that we get so far from the truth, the real existance. You know. Its like our minds only believe in whats not real, something so so far from reality. But why is that?
I guess its from all the lies we face it sometimes makes the truth seem so far away.
hmm .

But think of this, what if reality was all just what we make it. Then what? Does the lies not matter anymore, every false identity and statement not occur to be a lie anymore. Does the truth feel closer or is it still pushed away? What then. If reality was what we made it to be.
Would everything change, would things suddenly be okay?

I dont know, i guess we can only find that out for ourselves.
But the thing is, the truth is in exsitance, and lies are just the intentional untruth. So why do we get caught up in so many false statements, and actions, why cant we just go on believing and knowing that the truth will carry us you now. And everything will be okay. Where for a moment nothing can take whats real away from us. But maybe some of us make it inevitably or you could say impossible to avoide or prevent the lies.
I guess somethings we just have to figure it out on our own, you know, are you living in the truth or is that so far from your life right now?

Just have a little faith that the truth will keep you from all the false statements and identities in this life, Have hope that things will be okay if you just believe that the truth isnt too far. Dont give up.

Maybe, Just Maybe whats already happend can slip behind you'

You know you cant erase the things you may have said, or take back the actions you have made, but maybe just maybe theres still hope, and beyond that, theres forgivness. Or maybe theres that one chance youve been waiting for to escape, to leave what has already happend behind. Not that it never existed, because it did, just to put a blind eye out infront, so its just a vague blurr becoming distant to your memory. Its like when you wake up from a dream, and by the time you have woken up, its really just a blurr, a dream you cant remember. Maybe just maybe the bad part of your past could be that. Maybe someone out there believes in you, or even has the strength to say they have faith in you. To put forward the words that not only help a person but through it all give them the real existing belief that they can change.

If you think about it, there is a hope. You have hope all your life. Its the whilling to want to change that really makes things different. There is forgivness because no matter what we do, we are forgiven that moment. There is that one chance to escape, its the moment you realize your done holding onto whats already gone and left, and your moving on. Someone does believe in you. and they believe that change can be possible for you because maybe it was possible for them too. They have faith in you because maybe there just not ready to give up on you yet either because the truth is we all hate losing people. You see through everything in life, and from your past theres always going to be those things there no matter what happens.

Sometimes its hard to see past the obvious things in life, we end up looking to hard instead of looking clearly and we just see through it instead of really understanding what we are looking for. But if we really opened our eyes maybe we could see, that the past is the past, and its time to live in the present.

You see, the past is kind of like when you go outside at night and look up to the stars, you know that there, there and you can see them, but you cant touch them. You know that your past is always there, and you can sometimes see the images from the memories, but you cant be in that moment again enough to feel it. Its like the wind you cant see the wind infront of you, but you can feel it. Its the feeling that you know its there. You cant see your past infront of you, because its behind you, but your always going to feel it, because its always going to be apart of you unless you let it go.
It will always be there because its apart of your life now. The best thing you can do is let it go. Stop running from it because its just going to follow you, just move on and start over, let the past of yours make you a stronger person, dont let it hold you back from anything, because no matter what there is a hope, and forgivness. There is a chance to escape, People believe in you and have faith in you. Its all there, but sometimes your to wrapped up in what has happend that you just cant let it go and instead you start to slip away from yourself. If all you do is think about it and your living directly in the past, then you cant really call it your past can you, because your still living it.
Stop letting it take control of your life, and just let it go, and move on from whats already happend. Let whats happend slip behind you, so you can walk a new path.

letting him in, through all your descuises;

Our society and the world we live in today is really just like a masked ball, where everbody hides their real chraracter and their true identity. Instead they reveal their character by hiding, or even to the point where their running.
We've all hid behind a mask before, where we discuise our selves from who we really are so the world cant get close enough to see. Weve all done it, sometimes because we are scared of what people think of us, and i mean the real us. Its pathetic, i mean other people are just as worried as us, so why do we worry so much? Its really easy to get lost and carried away from who you are.
Gone to a place where you dont belong, just because you wear a mask. You lose your self in many things like the gossip, the lies in this life, the fights and mostly the or i should say alot of our fake identities that usually get us through the day with out us even realizing it. Our self descise that keeps people from knowing us. Life can be tough and a series of trial and error but its no reason or excuse to give up or to hide who you are from everybody else.
We only live once and life is to short to be trying to be someone or something your not and losing yourself in everything that may be happening around you.
Like i said life is a series of trial and error and its really hard to get through it yourself, this is when God comes in, hes always here and will always be right by our sides.
Trust in the lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding in this life. Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your paths. Hes always right beside you, you just need to learn to let him in!
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A piece of your very own past''

"A picture is worth a million words" , it basically says those words that are so hard to explain.
Thats what alot of us may have heard, but we may have never actually thought about, not only is a picture worth a million words, but what about a picture expressing a million emotions too, because there always there. One picture can take you back to that past, maybe a dark past you have tried to forget, or mabye a piece of your past youll always have, and you never want to let it go.
A picture that can explain alot, if you just look at it. What about where you have been? How you got to where you are now? Who you shared the past& memories with? What falls did you take and steps did you take to get to where you are? Who was in your life then, but have dissapeared now? To the simple questions of, what colour was your hair? How tall were you then? What did you dress like? Theres so much more to one picture, as you look at it, the world suddenly dissapears, because you start to look in the past. One picture can explain so much that has happend in your life, and how you live your life now. Its just one look into the past.
Some pictures you look at and it hurts you, because alot of the times some people you maybe looking at, arnt in your life now. And its hard, its really hard. The pictures will always be there. Even though the people in your pictures may not be walking the road with you today. Youll always have that breif memory of them. Youll always have that breif memory of yourself just looking at one photoraph too. Because the truth is, we all change. and you cant deny it. If you look at an old picture of yourself, take a deeper look, youll realize that you may be a total different person now, because we all chane in time. We may look back and regret somethings, but things are how they are now, and you cant look back and change it.
Every photo not only is worth a million words but theres always going to be those emotions too. When you look back and you greve, or you look back and you may be proud. Looking back and laughing at some memories, or even looking back and questioning a good amount of questions. Emotions will always be there, with out them the picture wouldnt make any sence.

So, when you look at a photograph on your wall, its like your looking into the past, and the words and emotions are there to help explain the photo. To help show you who you were, and who you are now in life. A photo is way more than just a memory, but its a peice of your very own past.